psychiatric couch syndrome

if i fall asleep at the morning briefing or fall asleep at dinner or can't make it for our weekly date with the mat rockers 2moro i'm so gonna kill u AT...

in our extremely long phone conversation we had that stretched from the time i was still at office to my bus ride home and den back at home, the topic of psychiatric couch syndrome was brought up a couple of times...

AT mentioned that it's really painful to go out with someone that you can't click with and have nothing to talk about...u'll end up with a sore throat and having to check if the other person is still awake and alive periodically.

tink that has never been a problem for me... i have this tendency to go on n on n on about myself all the time, pouring out my life story and giving a detailed account of my daily life as if i'm on a psychiatrist couch, esp so with ppl i'm close to...mite b a side effect from work... i listen to ppl from mon-fri so come weekends it's my turn to ramble...my blog is definitely another avenue for my verbal diarrhea...

having said tt, i guess tt's prob my natural rxn to any awkward silence...that's something i'm definitely not used to and will find things to say to fill up any voids...prob another occupational habit/hazzard picked up from work aside from my lack of patience...not too comfortable if i'm unable to keep the conversation going when i'm interviewing someone... but it's also bcuz of this tt my interviews go on forever. i usually do end up enjoying toking to the other person... not sure if the feeling is mutual... at least i hope so...i need to exercise more self control whether with frens or with interviewees....

rite it's 230am...time for me to zip n go to bed....

note 2 self

note to self...
this weekend i need to:
- get a new lamp for my work desk
- get a new recorder
- finish my gst articles...

...

horrid horrid day....i wanna go home...

- got stuck in traffic for over an hour in the morning. Fortunately i was in time for Tharman's speech
- recorder died on me in the middle of Tharman's speech
- having to sit through a very boring full day academic conference with painful accents...i'm seriously reconsidering my intention of doing my phd...(academics should really think about improving their presentation skills other than getting their researches done or they'll never get the msg across n will put the person on the receiving end in extreme torture...)
- needed to do my first ever correction in my career...hopefully the last...i've checked it again n again b4 submitting the article last friday....don't know why i still managed to make so many mistakes in such a simple article....arghhhh...(although the work at my current desk is much much lighter than before but i'm losing more sleep...been having insomnia cuz i'm constantly afraid of writing something wrong... think the more I worry, the more likely I'll make a mistake....will taking it ez help? i have no confidence...)

A couple of ppl said this to me in the past year: i'm a mistake.

perhaps they are right.